i dont know...suddenly im realising that more responsibility is being handed to me than i think i want.
im scared to say what i realy want to do and so close to actually doing it. i dont want to do something stupid like throw away a chance for something i might be good at...but i dont know if i need it just now...i dont know that im ready for it.
i dont want to mislead those im around..and i dont want to commit to something half-heartedly.
i wish i knew which to jump toward
what to do?
i think this is what has been on my mind all along.