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I found some prayer journal entries i made surrounding the first surgery
Tomorrow is Mike's consult with the surgeon. His GI doctor truly
has tried to think of every other viable option prior to this.
Help me to continue to trust not only you, and your leading on
this, but also the wisdom of the doctors you've provided for us.
Knowing that Mike's case has been discussed at hospital meetings and
used as a teaching discussion kind of helps solidify to me that Dr.
Gully is taking this very seriously, not just dealing with the
patient at the moment they are in the building, but carrying his
concern to others to try to solve this mystery.
At the same time, I don't want to sound harsh, or under
appreciative of some friends' concern and advice at mentioning
special diets and health advice. It is difficult to receive when I
never did fully trust Mike's assigned dietician's advice and
Please give me wisdom and knowledge to best feed my husband and
trust you to bring your healing in the best way possible, that you
receive the honor and glory for it all.
October 23, 2012
As of Friday (last week) we have Michael's surgery scheduled! I
think I am so relived to see an end to the medicine treatments that
don't work but that wear on my husband with side effects... This
feels like a breath of fresh air. I realise it will not be all roses
getting from where we are to the new Michael. Its a 3 surgery process
across the span of about 6 months. He still will not function the
same as the rest of us, but if all of this goes as planned, he wont
need to use a bag for the rest of his life, and the outcome, though
not as convenient as someone who's never had UC, will be easier than
his life now. I am confident that this is right. I do not have a
guarantee that all the details will go perfectly, but I feel so at
ease about letting them operate on my dear Michael...
You,God, are trustworthy and faithful. You continue to provide for
us through support financially and in prayer. You've not only given
us a church family to take care of us...but TWO locally, plus one in
Mississippi and one in Texas, all who have been tremendous to us in
their care. I'm trusting you with the doctor and nurses you've put us
with-you have made them and placed them. Help us to shine in our
faith, that they see you in our reactions. Give me wisdom and grace
to accept help and to know what help I need, as friends seek to
assist us in service to you.
Psalm 100:3 “Know that the LORD, He is God! It is He who made us
and we are his; We are his people and the sheep of his pasture.”
October 25, 2012
I keep being drawn to the Psalms. This morning I am at Psalm 102,
which feels like it may be the cry of my husband when it talks about
the pain and disheartened stress.
Help us not to have a false sense of hope going into this
surgery....I mean prepare him for the continued difficulties he will
face even though the worst will be gone. Help me to be patient with
him and compassionate when he gets frustrated with the correct foods
to eat. Give us both extra grace to face these difficulties together
and help each other through them.
I hope and desire that by the time he is able to consistently face
life out of the house again, that someone will have a job available
to him, preferring someone with the knowledge and compassion to see
us through the next two surgeries and recovery period. It would be
amazing both financially and for him emotionally, to have that
available. Please open now the way in which we should go with that.
Thank you for continuing to provide more than just enough with our
very little. I feel like the widow with the oil jar, or the boy with
the lunch of what we are able to earn, we should not be able to make
ends meet, but you have been stretching our dollars for the past
three years, never giving us what society would call “plenty” but
never leaving us in need of anything. We have been clothed,fed with
difficult diet needs, kept cars running and bills paid. You moved us
twice and covered all our medical needs,and even provided that we
were able to go to Haiti. Math would not add these up and match our
December 18, 2012
Today Michael begins work again! His last paycheck was written in
September 2011. You have not failed to provide for us. This month
took our savings account down to $50. Not enough left in it to cover
our next month's bills. I asked of you, Lord, to provide for us
financially,and you immediately began to give through your people.
1St $12 then $50 and now a source of income.
So I do not forget in the future, Mike is going back to work at
Fast Signs. He will be 3 days a week. It has been 3 years since he's
worked there. 2 years since he asked them about rehiring him (when we
moved back), and 1 ½ years since we found ourselves members at the
same church as Melanie and Miles. Only you could have planned these
circumstances-to place us in fellowship with them, that they know our
situation, know he will have to work and then take off again-and have OFFERED him this at the moment we found ourselves most in need. You
are so faithful. You are great and praised. I remember asking you
months ago,that you would provide a job offer JUST like this at this
You are teaching me the importance of asking for specifics of you.
Acknowledging my need and your power to provide it.
Help me continue to not only trust you to carry us, but to provide
for our wants and needs as we express them humbly to you.