Philippians 4:4-9
Rejoice in the Lord always. I will say it again: Rejoice! Let your gentleness be evident to all. The Lord is near. Do not be anxious about anything, but in everything, by prayer and petition, with thanksgiving, present your requests to God. And the peace of God, which transcends all understanding, will guard your hearts and your minds in Christ Jesus.
Finally, brothers, whatever is true, whatever is noble, whatever is right, whatever is pure, whatever is lovely, whatever is admirable--if anything is excellent or praiseworthy--think about such things. Whatever you have learned or received or heard from me, or seen in me--put it into practice. And the God of peace will be with you.

Ephesians3: 16-20
I pray that out of his glorious riches he may strengthen you with power through his Spirit in your inner being, so that Christ may dwell in your hearts through faith. And I pray that you, being rooted and established in love, may have power, together with all the saints, to grasp how wide and long and high and deep is the love of Christ, and to know this love that surpasses knowledge--that you may be filled to the measure of all the fullness of God.
Now to him who is able to do immeasurably more than all we ask or imagine, according to his power that is at work within us, to him be glory in the church and in Christ Jesus throughout all generations, for ever and ever! Amen.

i'm okay
you're okay

surprisingly enough

*sigh*

I posted this on a message board earlier today...but it makes great blog material...realy

i have a bit of time to spare this afternoon..so here's a little bit of me as of late

we at WCC are in the 2nd week of the (aweful and completely unfocused) winter trimester. It seems as though everyone i know has been walking aroun kind of dazed all week. its so difficult to start a new term knowing you'll be out again after two weeks and then again after three more weeks.

Monday i found out that i'm in charge of Publicity for the music department christmas program which happens on December 13th. Being that we are out the entire week of thanksgiving, and the show is three weeks from tomorrow..i've had a lot on my mind this week pertaining to that. This job realy scares me beause everything is on a deadline. and Everything includes a great multitude of things. But Dr. Roberts (my voice teacher) tells me that Dr. Valentine (dean of the dept) chose me for it becuase he knows i can handle a crazy schedule and get things done when i'm supposed to.

I'm actively attending three churches...

I've taken on a position as a music intern at dr. Valentine's church, 45 miles from here. I began and lead a handbell choir on sunday afternoons. Their first performance is on December 15th. That will be interesting.
I've also taken on a scholarship position at Dr. Roberts' church as a choir member on sunday mornings.
Wednesday evenings i still attend the church a am a member of for small group bible studies.

I'm teaching my first ever voice student.

For one of my music classes, (Directed Teaching of Voice) i'm required to teach a voice student who has never had private study before. the midterm and final each consist of teaching a lesson in front of Dr. Roberts so she can grade my teaching. (eek!) I'm realy excited about this...i've already taught two lessons thus far. Its difficult to get beyond the musician's jargon we all use around each other and explain things on a beginner level. My student gets free lessons out of the deal, too

My senior recital is in less than 4 months and I graduate in under 6 months...wow

If you've made it this far..please pray for my family in the next month or so...especially my grandmother. This is the first holiday season since granddaddy died.

thanks kids
i love you all

adding to the anxious things...

one of the classes i am taking this term is called "Directed Teaching of Voice" which means i have to teach a voice student myself! two out of 8 lessons will be taught with Dr. Roberts sitting there watching how i work...that is sooo scarry! eek!
We even have to turn in lesson plans each week.
I'm truthfully excited about getting to share some of what i've learned all these years with someone who may otherwise not be able to take lessons. the criteria for finding students was that it had to be someone who'd never had private voice lessons..and they get free lessons out of the deal.
My first lesson with my student (Chasity) is just over an hour from now.
The things that scare me the most right now are: 1. i'm going to be tape recording the lesson so chasity can listen to the warm ups and stuff during the week. 2. i fear that i'll end up using too much musical lingo and she wont understand what i am talking about. 3. i fear that i'll teach something completely wrong.

refreshing things:
-talking to fer on sunday night
-passing world history 101
-begining world history 102 (beginnings always feel so much nicer than endings)
-Fettichini Alfredo

anxious things:
-very expensive trips i want to take...one is to germany and switzerland with dr wheeler, the other is to england with dr. eskew..both are far beyond the reach of my checking account..but i almost cry thinking about how amazing one of them would be.
-world history
-preparing the handbell choir for december 15th

back from a week of nothing to do but be places i've never been and see things i've never seen.
a new term begins.
i still dont know how i faired in the last one..by the skin of my teeth..
i begin anew
i must MUST must
improve.

i'll write in full thoughts now.
i spent last week in indiana with my roommate, my brother, and two other friends of ours.
we saw chicago and visited indiana university.
visiting the school only further showed me how ready i am to just be OUT of school for a while.
no graduate school is seen in my near future.
not because i can't do it...but because i dont WANT to.

i spent the lastpart of the break in Hammond, LA for NATS (vocal conference/contest)
i didn't get to see cheri and litha.
or skot...

(it was your birthday...sorry i missed it..
It kills me that i was so close to you the whole weekend..but couldnt get to you.
How did i become so detached from your life?)

I wish i could just press fast forward through the next six months
yet still excell in my school work.
time is not my own these days.
i now have four jobs...
...plus school...
...plus carpenter's wood...
...I'm part of three churches (two account for two of the previously mentioned jobs)
what? i have life to fit in as well?

God, help me.
perhaps i should have asked that to begin with.