three day weekend!
i'm off work july 10, 11, and 12
and im monring on the 9th....so its 3 nights and 3 days

i need to GO SOMEPLACE!
who (within reasonable driving distance) wants me :) ?

i can conjure up ideas and visions all my own
dreams i'd see unfolding as i'd mold them.
i can stay or go on whim or wind
and watch the pieces all fall in
but who's to say that's how its set in motion?
frustrated with the way things feel
changed plans, spilled bottles, a climb uphill
and wanting to feel better
escape seems welcome
but i know that's not the way i'll settle
so numbly i sit on this floor
and feel my heart pound lightly
mouth meekly whispers truths i'm sure
and promises not broken yet held coldly
pretended patience vows i'll wait
for clarity and open sight
of where i'm lead to next
in my flight towards the change

ARGH!!

im a little frustrated with my responsibilities at the moment..and the one who gives them to me.
so im suddenly told that downsizing the one year celebration isnt the thing we're going to do...that i've got 6 times the budget i was first told...i should do outdoors with a flatbed truck for a stage, an inflatable jumping thing for kids, catering, on sight radio spots from a couple of stations..etc...etc...etc...and tshirts.....and all of this with only a little over a month to plan? i could have done sooo much with this if id known when you told me the first effing number!
*grumble*growl*

with great power comes great responsibility....

i realy am in the mix!
its true! theres a picture and everything! he wasnt just a random stalker! :)

hrm...well..as of tonight i have three musicians booked for the birthday bash...what was i dreading? no idea!
now ive got to come up with a realy awesome flyer design to attract happy people (maybe not shiney ones)

...and, just so you know, this place is gonna get a redo soon...i can sense it.
ive many a new journal link to add, and many a link to edit so it works properly, too.
should i change colors? i dunno yet.

ever feel like things arent as easy as you had planned them to be?
im supposed to be tossing together a realy cool one year birthday party for the coffee shop come the end of july...and i was given a meer 500 in my budget...but i wanted to use that budget to get a musician who was worth drawing a crowd in and kind of being a little bit more than what people have come to expect from our weekend entertainment.
who can i get for under $500? i dunno

also, my insides are churning up a storm right now and have been working on that for the last 3 or 4 hours...on top of the fact that whatever someone cooked in the kitchen tonight has a lingering "wash me soon!" sort of scent...and im super sleepy...going to bed. tomorrow i'll feel better

and maybe tomorrow i'll have a clue about who to book for july 31st?

im gonna be in the mix!
metro spirit does a write up about area servers and people of the community every week...and today a guy walked in to take my picture for it! yay!
so, soon my cell phone will ring and a metro reporter will interview me with odd personality questions like "what is your favorite after school snack" and various other unknown randomnesses. i'm happy
ill scan the little thing when it hits the racks next week so all of you can see:)

i dont know what to do with this...
i want to say things i cannot form into words
i wish to not need these things said
because theyd be known already
and i cant sleep
not because of this
but alongside it
and beneath it
and surrounded
but its a beautiful night for sleeping
raining and thundery
like nights i remember

here comes a whole load of brain-storm spew.....

okay..absolutely convinced that im not opening my coffee shop here in augusta. this is good news! i KNOW something specific now! (one not helps narrow things down by about 2%)

this week a realy cool coffee shop opened on the same block as the miller theatre spot that i was considering. that block was the only block that i ever considered a good place for one to start, and its taken now by what i believe will last as a coffeeshop. its a franchise (not a chain..meaning the owner gets to call his own shots) and its in a realy good location. the vision looks a bit more in line with what a downtown coffee shop should be than r gabriels (since r gabs isnt downtown, good for them) the owner was the first employee of the original store in the franchise, so i know he's pretty passionate about the business.. (sound familiar?) they have a lovely decor, (almost the same colors i'd use, actually) and the staff is super friendly.
so..today i felt like that door closed on me and it helped open up a lot of freedom to look elsewhere. i could talk to this new coffee shop owner and find out what it takes to do a franchise of the place, or i could just learn from what i see there, and think about where i should go next.
i've been considering my next location for a couple of weeks now...still no certainties..but i feel like a move might be looming in the near future.
there's a realy good possibility that i could move to winston-salem, NC with Fer in January...she's planning to go to school there...and we've often talked about living someplace together at some point. its a college town that i know has a few coffee shops..i havent visited the place yet, but i'm open to the idea so far. another reason january sticks out as a good time to transition, is that it would allow me to complete a season of christmas concerts with the choirs im getting involved with (first pres chancel choir and the augusta choral society) and i'd have been manager status for over a year at my first coffee job. also, one of my housemates is considering moving to seminary in either january or next fall..and my other housemate is also considering moving out to live with her parents again for a while to save money.
things are starting to look rather pointed rather fast...at least to a location change. i'm still waiting for clarity on the specific location, i could hav a whole new turn of events by next week saying i should move to montana or germany or who knows :)
(actually, jen, the first mentioned housemate, has a friend whos working a missions intership for a year helping students in germany learn english while working in a christian coffeehouse...what? yeah..i told jen to find me some info on that, too)

anyhow..mocha delites is my new away-from-work coffee hang out where i can brainspew:)