weekend rotation:

(i already posted this in a vagrant cafe reply...i'm putting it here too)

i just got out of bed.
today i am...

wearing:
-white tank top
-grey knit shorts
-glasses
-hair a mess in a bun
-slightly sunburnt ears and back
-almost flaked off temporary Finding Nemo tattoo on my back

listening:
-chasing furies-with abandon
-the sound of the moody station blaring from my parents' radio in the living room.
-occasional little voices of the 8 year olds in the room next door pretending something or another

thinking:
-plans to hang out with springstead are off now..which makes me glad i didnt get up and get dressed before he called. turns out he's stuck with his little niece and nephew plus recovering from taking his youth group to six flags...so yeah. now i've got no plans for the day...but it was cool to get to talk to him for a little while...his two year old niece too!
-my back is at that itchy stage of the burn..eek
-daddy opened up the pool in the backyard today...hrm..maybe i'll have something to do after all. sure..its only 3 ft deep..but at least its wet.
-i've been ropped into helping with vacation bible school next week after all. i'm now the music assistant.
-mom doesnt think i'll be ready to move out by the end of the week. i'm pretty set on getting out of here that soon...i had hopped to leave sooner..but now this VBS thing came up..so...maybe saturday...i hope. *shrugs*
(ouch..that made my back sting)

thats all

i dont usually put these things in my blog...but this one was so amusing i had to share...


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oh yeah...graduation happened yesterday. i'm out of college now. its kind of a strange thought....everything happens so fast in life.
now its time to tackle the immediate situation: unpacking and sorting through all of my junk...hoping to get rid of a lot so i dont have to store or move as much next time.
i'm sleepy...
gotta go get ready for church now.

voice jury at 12:30 CST..then i am done!
its just about time to celebrate

well..only three things left to do!
of my 11.7 hours and 7 classes...i only have three finals to take next week:)
strings class had the final two weeks ago, tennis met for the last time on monday and has no final, chorale has no final, and this morning i discovered that i wont have a counterpoint final either! so all i have left are two juries and a music in worship final.
as of tuesday afternoon i will be finished and ready to walk across that stage!

so..this weekend i will practice and study and visit with people i wont get to see much of after i leave..

in case you were wondering, though..the Lean Cuisine Sweet and Sour chicken diner tastes very very orangey..and i dont like it.

someday i hope to get over myself...for at least thirty minutes..and see beyond me...

somedays it seems as though i cant find the faith to grasp firmly and pray for the things i need...and instead i let go of the hope for fear of disapointment.

somedays i hide within myself....it doesnt mean i dont want to be found.
i want to be found..more than anything else...i want to be seen where i am...vulnerable on the stairs in my own pity..i want to be found there and understood. i dont want to feel like i have to wipe away the tears before they are seen, smile, and say i'm doing alright. i want to be real and exposed...
but where are you?
its hard to find a friend.

endings....

things are starting to come to a close.
monday was my last strings class.
next monday is my last day of tennis.
only three assignments left in my church music class.
i only have two sundays left at westminster.
only one more full week of classes.
only three songs to work on in voice.
one remaining chorale performance.
two or three carpenter's wood features.

after all of these endings i start a brand new beginning