i probably shouldnt have said it, so i'm sorry.
i try to think before i speak..but then my thoughts come out in written form and fly to you and i cant take them back. i forget that thinking before speaking is supposed to include thinking about what they need to hear more than what i need to say before i explode. because, no matter how true i think it is, i'm not going to realy explode....am i?

i have many thoughts that i selfishly want to throw out into another brain in hopes of recieving answers...but i'm holding onto them for your sake.
i wish you knew the thoughts and would thank me for not blurting them out to you.

maybe i'll dream that it happened and believe that it was real for long enough to be free of this.